So tonight was Cubbies at church on sunday they said go ahead a register for Awanas there are spots in all classes, so I drove to Kadena with Korbin & Katara to enjoy our first Awana meeting. Korbin was so excited he couldn't wait, after getting lost several times and with the help of about 4 people I finally found the religous education center! We go in and see that his class has only about 12-16 kids to 3 teachers! Wooo Hoo right? The teachers said to go register so I went to register, a little girl led me to her mom who was helping a girl with her verse in the hallway, she seemed pretty annoyed that we were there and reluctantly helped me. Korbin kept saying I am going to my class now? She said we need to register, we walk into the room and Korbin asked about his class again and she said well you can't go to class because it is too full, you need to be on a wait list and went on to explain that they needed 1 more teacher for him to join, I spoke up and said I can teach in his class, she looked at me and looked at Katara and said well we don't have a nursery. Sorry.
By this point I have had it I had fought back tears after the 2nd chapel I went to. I started to cry and told her I have no idea how to get back to Gate 1 which is the only gate I know how to get home from. She sighed and drew me a steller map. All the time Korbin is wailing b/c he can't go meet his teacher or his friends. He said he wants to go home where Miss Amy is and where Alicia is, he said they love him and want him in their class which makes me cry more. Katara got shots and she was sobbing so I drove home in the dark sobbing, with 2 sobbing kids. The poor gate guard looked appaled when I pulled up wails comeing from the car mascara streaming down my cheek he said try have good night, be safe.
Yeah good night be safe...tonight was one of the first times that I have truely felt helpless. I couldn't make my son feel any better. I don't like that feeling, even if in a few months the lady calls me back and says yeah you can come now, I don't know if we will b/c he'll be so far behind there is no way he will be able to catch up. I hate the helpless feeling, I couldn't soothe him or make his tears stop, no matter what I said wouldn't help because he wanted his class he wanted friends. He said he will never get his patches for his cubbie suit and then started crying about that. So I guess I will continue to do 1 cubbie verse a week during our "school time' like I have been doing, he won't fill up his cubbie suit but he will learn the word of God which is the important part.
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